Christmas Break.Class Ring.Dad.MyLifeLately

so, Christmas break has been wonderful, still currently on that break and PRAYING for it not to come to an end. our christmas went well, i got my class ring :] i love it, its got this cute little peace sign in the middle of crystal blue stone :] so cute. as for my dad, he's been getting better. hes been being nice and all, i think hes realizing that his time with us is limited, due to a possible medical situation or just because were leaving for college. but idk, i like it.
my life lately...
-james:"dont go see the soul stealer." me:"im just gonna say hi." **CAR ALARM**
-Batman Undies.
-SuperMan Undies
-"We did NOT go through this whole love triangle thing for him to like someone else, dammit."
-Adam Lambert-If I Had You.
-Ex-boyfriend talking and being all nice....gagme eww.
-ACT=FML
-Subway it is.
-James: "WHY THE HELL DOES THE MARINARA SAUCE HAVE MEAT IN IT?"
-My cats a bitch...justsayin'
-im a twitter whore. www.twitter.com/robbyrawrtastic followme?!

okay, that all for now, LOVE YOU GUYS!

&& it's been forever. sorry

OMG. it has been forever since i blogged. and im sorry. so here it goes, ill just fill you in on a few things that have happened.
-i have blonde hair. have for quite some time now. :P
-i've been feeling pretty fabulous lately.
-i've been talking to this new boy name Matthew. HES SO CUTE :P
-jake and i are still great friends.
-jeffrey and i are still good friends.
-every tuesday night is "fun night"
-- fun night is me, james, beth, and jessica all getting together and going out! <3 we just go out and have fun and do whatever :D its a blast.

were coming up to the end of the first semester and things are CRAZY i swear, pr-cal and physics are kicking my ass :P justsayin'

ohokay so ill post againg tonight or tommorow, cause i think i need to blog more, just a thought... :P

Mommy wearing Chanel in a new Car on Fire! :D

Ohkay so lets BLOGGGGG guys! ;D havnt done that in a while so im just gonna sit down and run with it. i have a recap, this will be fast and not too detailed :P...got to see my mommy and actually hug her for the first time in 9 months. it felt great! <3
also i got my first designer item, it the chanel necklace pictured above! :D i absolutely adore it. also i may be getting a new car <3 because the death trap i have now it just miserable :P haha okay im j/k its not THAT bad, but i might be getting a new car and that it VERY exciting, i can't wait! school has been great this year, the junior guys and stuff make fun of me every now and then, but hey, FUCK THEM! :D im having a great year, and girls like paige baize, beth harris, paige bukowski, and rachael starks make it better, they are amazing :P tommorow night (wednesday the 9th) is the senior bonfire, and ill get pictures of that asap but im gonna cry because we have this big slide show of the seniors from babys to now, and its so amazing then we light big letters on fire that spell SRS 2010 (seniors 2010) :D im so excited! :D love you guys, also, im thinking about video blogging??? comments?

What a Crush...>.<

lol, okay, everyone....i have a confession, i have a crush on my 4th period Spanish 3 teacher... LOL his name is Brandon :P A.K.A Coach Ely (pronounced elee) haha. he so cute! haha i dont have a picture because that would be weird :P hahaha. but i just wanted to confess it to my blog and tell everyone that he is a sexy beastttt :D
he's so funny!! we joke around in class! haha not just us, but the class in general and the whole class knows lol there like 12-ish people in the class and they all think its so funny! haha, ive alwayyyys had the fantasy of dating an older guy that was my teacher....seems like a odd/fun experience :P but i REALLLY wish that would happen ahahaha although i know that it wont! >.< damn reality!
haha well, anyways, thats my new crush! he's a hunk! :D

Wishing on a Star...

wishes...

• i wish that everything went how i wanted it...
• i wish that my parents and family we're together and normal
• i wish that i could could be openly gay as i am now, without the rude comments
• i wish that i was skinnier :P
• i sometimes wish that when i was put up for adoption at a young age, i would've stayed with that family
• i wish my dad would accept me as i am?
• i wish life weren't as hard as it is at times
• i wish that on my 9th birthday my parents would've stopped yelling at eachother long enought to tell me happy birthday!
  
• i wish that the past were easy to forget.
• i wish i had a pet panda
• i wish i had a navy blue Nissan Pathfinder
• i wish that i had been born an identical triplet
• i wish my mommy were here with me...not where she is
• i wish perez hilton would say nice things about me in his blog
• i wish every kid in the world had a house and good food
• i wish i was STUNNING GORGEOUS so i could be more confident
• i wish my debit card didnt have a limit... :D
• i wish that moth would'nt have just flown across my screen! >.<

okay, as you all know i am generally a happy person...but these are a few wishes i have...and i know, dreaming wont get you any further than the pillow your head is lying on, but its nice to imagine sometimes...right? love you all, sorry for bitching :P

me:*tackles moth across the bed*
moth:*attempts to flutter away*
me:*you WILL NOT escape*
moth:*flys away*
me: -__-" <(wtf>)
MORAL: moths are fucking fasttt! :D
just a thought...

Have a Heart

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=03KUskTSPD8

the above link is to a video that i find absolutely degrading and oh so lacking in tact. in said video, Dane Cook, im sure you've all seen or heard of him, well if you don't know, he's a comedian/actor and obviously needs to learn when to shut the hell up. okay, and im sure you've all heard of Vanessa Hudgens, played Gabriella in High School Musicals 1, 2, and 3, and is in the new Band Slam Movie that will be coming out soon, well im sure you heard that somehow nude photos of her were leaked to the public, and yes im so sure that's EXACTLY what she wanted everyone to see, but at the Teen Choice Awards, a place where there's lots of kids and fun and just pure excitement and suspense, she probably thought that was one night she just might get away without being embarrased about her previous actions. well in this video ON STAGE in front of hundreds or thousands of kids and young adults, Dane Cook calls Vanessa Hudgens out and she looks up smiling, and the next words out of his mouth were apauling, he told her "girl, you need to keep your clothes on!" the worst part it that it was NATIONAL TELEVISION and infont of CHILDREN....have a heart, her face after that, broke my heart :[ im not a GIANT raging fan of Vanessa Hudgens, but even if i hated the girl, i would have the tact, the intelligence, and the heart not to say that for every citizen of the United States to see and hear. just a thought...

Matthew Lush

okay everyone, matthew lush, hes 21, gay, vegan, and so on....he such an inspiration to me, i love him. well, a few days ago i ordered his rainbow LOVE tee-shirt haha and i revieved that today, i was SOOOO happy! :D :D :D
its a cute shirt that also has a message to it. also because we've talked on twitter he gave me fee pin/buttons lol :D so cute! <3 i ordered another shirt tonight and i cant wait to get it.... i had a pretty good day today :D LOVE YOU GUYS, ill write agian soon, just a thought...

rough day much!...

today, Anthony and I went 2 and 1/2 hours away to Denton to help his friend move...well, we thought it wouldnt be a big deal, help him move and Anthony get back for work and everything...but this person was very anti-productive about his moving, he wouldn't help move much of anything he was too busy either arguing with anthony and telling him he was stupid and how much he didnt like anything anthony did, and why or how he did it...the worst part about it is that anthony was not asked to do this for his "friend", but EXPECTED...so anthony asked if i would help him. we went to Wal*Mart, and said friend needed all these groceries, but there was a chance that his credit card wouldn't go through, so anthony was again, EXPECTED to buy these groceries if his card didnt work. So our "friend" pranced around Wal*Mart putting, not only what he needed, but what he wanted, KNOWING that anthonys might have to buy it with his limited amount of money. alsoooooo, at one point, the "friend" said he was a "poor college kid" but he CONSTANTLY eats out, his laptop broke so he decided he's going to buy the MOST EXPENSIVE MacBook with a 21"screen, also considering his car was totaled, he has every intention of buying a 2010 Dodge charger ans simply says, "its only like 150$ a month it will be easy". so we just wanted to leave, i know i probably missed things but you understand our general problem >.< uGHHHHHH!
love you anthony! :P

Hi everyone

hey everyone! :D i just wanted to talk about me! :P sounds good right? i mean, that's why your here isn't it... haha well, i have been way stressed lately kinda growing up and just realizing that im not gonna be a dramtic, drama queen little 17 year old for the rest of my life, as much as i wish i would deffinately just stop growing at 19 hahahah XD sounds great right?? well, i have two jobs now, i have Sonic drive-in, of course that's the fast food place and i deliver orders out, and i also just recently got a job at Hot Topic in the Richland Mall and i am absolutely loving it so far. fun place, right? well, two days ago we had senior pictures, i was very happy about that haha, as you know, i love taking pictures :D well, i like pandas! XD
haha so u just brushed my teeth! :P i need to take nice refreshing bubble bath! haha i try to have one once a day but that doesnt always work....haha anyways im trying to figure things out for my senior year! graduating class of 2010 and sweetheart that time is going fast, i will be happy to be out of the hell-hole i call highschool but no doubt, somewhere, way deep in my mind, i will miss it alittle, btw, we are talking WAYYYYYYY deep! :D haha UNT is gonna be fun, i wanna be a photography major and im really hoping that works out well for me....haha
so scared of the funding though, big issues there! :[
well....your welcome, for what you ask....well the UPDATE of course! :D
just a thought...

JAKE! :D

jake...my new boyfriend! we started dating last sunday! and so far he's absolutely amazing :P i dont have alot to say, just wanted to inform everyone! :D
lol well i wentto bed at like 7am this morning, i am NEVER EVER doing that again, lol woke up at 1-1:30ish pm. then i had to go to work at 5.
also i have a new laptop and its great! :D love it...TO death! :D
im so freaking sorry that i havnt updated my blog in like fucking years :P j/k j/k its just been awhile :P loves you guys, ill be more consistant...just a thought...

Venting...?

im tired from work, feeling pretty apathetic. well i just kinda wish things were easier... ugh, just wish things werent so expensive, wish people weren't so stupid, rude, hateful, obnoxious.... then again, there are nice people in the world too, haha, i know a few...
idk, im tired, ima go to bed, sorry for not blogging a whole lot lately! :P
>.<"

let's just be friends...

to me..."let's just be friends" is one of the worst things that an uninterested person could say to you. if he's not interested, he should tell the truth and not to try to be all sweet when he really doesn't care. its just disappointing, after pouring out the affection you have for him, he says, "lets just be friends." you just told him that you wanted to be more...doesn't he understand that it just might get under you skin a little if your still friends and you know it wont be any more...? or maybe he really just doesn't want to see you again and he tells you that in hopes it will end what feelings you have for him...? lol boys are dumb...just a thought.

What if...?

• what if love really did last forever...?
• what if you had never met me...?
• what if the next you saw a bridge you felt the need to jump off of it...?
  
• what if you could fly...?
• what if poke`mon were real...?
• what if 6'8 was the average heigth for girls...?
• what if being gay was accepted everywhere but North Dakota...?
• what if i was straight...?
• what if i told you i was moving to northern Alaska...?
• what if i rode around everywhere on the back of a polar bear...?
• what if i pretended to be your friend just to steal your M&M's when you had them...?
• what if coconuts where what you fed to hamsters...?
• what if iphones had an app that could see the future...?
• what if life had "Game Over" screens when people died...?
• what if you had an imagination like mine...?
• what if im just kidding... :]
• just a thought...?
  

You're only as old as you feel...

ok, so this is a group of five little old ladies, obviously. me and my twin brother were hungry so we went into burger king, and after us walked in these five ladies. me and james ordered our food and sat down. the old ladies, one at a time, ordered their food after us. james and i sat down to eat and they all started laughing and joking around like a group of teenagers would. then the lady in the navy blue shirt pulled out a deck of skip-bo cards. one by one the burger king people would call the numbers of the ladies orders and they would walk up and retrieve their food, after they had all been seated, they started the game. it was such a funny moment watching this group of old women "hanging out" as if they were still young. i guess the saying "you're only as old as you feel" applies here. well, just watching what happened as these old ladies played a game, ate fast food, and joked around and laughed, made me smile, when i'm 70+ years old, i will definitely have a group of old friends and we will definitely be at the local burger king playing card games and laughing and smiling like we still have a whole life in front of us. just a thought...

Major thinking....

--i took this picture
so, before now, i've always thought/wanted a future in music. music education to be specific. well recently i've been thinking about it and after next year when i graduate and hopefully move on to UNT i don't want to be a music education major...i want to be a visual arts/photography major. i can see myself in a photography field, i've always liked the thought of capturing the splendor of those "moments" in life that your memory span just wouldn't be complete without. it's always said that it's the little things that make you smile that you'll never forget. and hell if your lucky enough to be able to capture that in a photo, it will last forever! ...just a thought...

He was the highlight of it all...

i met this boy awhile back. haha. his name is jeffrey. after going through a whole lot of drama with my ex luke and all a new guy was deffinately a breathe of fresh air. well jeffrey came over yesterday to spend the night, so me and james and jeffrey and anthony went to the movies and saw Night At The Museum 2. it was so funny :].

well then we all went back to mine and james's house. and at like 2am we went out to visit with tori and stephanie in the middle of nowhere heehee. that was a blast. jeffrey was so cute :P. then by like 4am we went home and tori and stephy went back. me and jeffrey ended up sleeping on the same bed and cuddling. it was so cute. heehee. we all got up this morning and were being lazy. like, REALLY lazy. we didn't want to get up. i didnt, jeffrey didnt, anthony didnt, and james sure as hell didn't. we did get up eventually and just hung around. then jeffrey had to go. i walked him to his car, hugged hime, kiss goodbye and he left! :P i plan on going to see him next time....haha, only fair right!

well...going upstairs to play videogames with nicky. haha. new crushes are so exciting. just a thought...

5:o6 a.m.

you know that time, it starts somewhere around 2:oo a.m. and last until you finally get some sleep, that time were literally everything that goes on is hilarious. that's now for me. its just a little after 5:oo a.m. and im not getting a wink of sleep, not tired....
lol just an idea, but, it could be due to the effects of that grape NOS energy drink i had earlier =P oops!
the picture above is one of my favorite snacks, CHEEZ-ITS and MINI-MARSHMALLOWS. sounds good right? haha!
maybe i should try to go to bed...just a thought...

bloggy thing =]

this is my blog, i'm probably going to go though just about every emotion on this blog, as of now, i'm still in high school, so of course there will be drama and i will definitely be ranting about it on here! =P
i'll try to update once a day, or every few days, i'm not too sure! =]
<3
...just a thought...